E X P R E S S I O N

Renaissance by xxxkimana

X I V • I X • M M X

Bittersweet Sympathy

V I I I • V I I • M M X

I barely dream

but I had a terrible one some nights ago

calm and peaceful I felt two weeks before

I was home and saw all my loved ones

sitting at my friends place in the kitchen

preparing a salad together

balcony doors opened

hearing voices from the courtyard

listening to music

I didn't know that I could feel so happy in that moment

last week I came back to where I live currently

I felt heavy

suffocated

and sad

I was watching the Germany - Argentina game outside

the first time I really went outside the house

after two days of isolated moodiness

after the game

I went home

and fell asleep

in my dream I was running through streets

it was night and people were everywhere

It wasn't packed

just people walking around

it seemed like it was weekend

I can't locate the dream

it even seemed like streets back home

I was running

looking behind

looking around

I was haunted

strained

scared

then I got caught

the guy was talking to me

I could not escape

nor run nor say anything

mute

he was dragging me

leading the way

he tried to push me into a car

but then he realized that it was occupied

it was a police car

ironically

they were in a careless mood

they were laughing about the incidence

I was silent

I felt invisible

they were looking through me

ignoring my helpless eyes

I felt like a ghost

the guy was dragging me further

scared and weak willed I followed

but somehow it wasn't him who scared me

he didn't look scary

I almost remember his face

then I escaped somehow

running again

hysterically looking around

hiding behind a building

checking where the guy is

running to another direction

hiding again behind a tree

then I woke up

I felt awful

then I thought about this dream a lot

maybe I dreamt this because my nerves were tensed from the football game

football players like a crowd

running after one ball

hunting the ball?

the feeling I had

of being haunted

but then

I thought of something worse

that

I kept on looking after the my hunter

why did I?

I kept on looking for it

scared

haunted.

last monday

Cologne

then Paris mens

now back in

Cologne

back to Korea on monday

and

gone

.

.

.

.

K O P F K I N O

by Piet Mondrian

thoughts

sounds

tunes

check out my track list and my favourites

A few years ago

this was shown in

Ludwig Museum in Cologne

everytime i felt bad

that museum was curing

european art is the best

Caligula - 2005 from dopingpong on Vimeo.

Trailer for a Remake of Gore Vidal's Caligula

Spending a day with

Caligula

Marie Antoinette

Janis Joplin

and Queen

how would that be?

V • V I • M M X

Too Young To Love - Vault of Heaven

"A chef salad please."

"Take away?"

"Yes."

"Are you new? Never seen you before.

...

You like loud music?"

"Yes, the louder the better.

Then I don't have to think."

"So you don't like to think?

...

What do you like?"

"Never thought about that.

I'll tell you when I've found out myself.

How about you?

What do you like?"

"Chef Salad."

taken from

Chungking Express

by Wong Kar Wai