... i really want to see.
Montag, 30. November 2009
Dark Annie illustration
... it was february 2009.
somewhere between germany and the netherlands
i don't exactly know anymore...
i only remember that it was really cold. i was tired and shivering.
very very cold february day... or more evening.. or rather night...
the entire winter 08/09 my friends and i
tried to find cheap ways to travel, taking cheap flights to london
and car lifts to berlin, paris, antwerp etc where ever...
i don't remember if the car lift had canceled our drive or why....
but my friend Kitty and i took different trains to get to the location.
the photographer Gerrit Starczewski picked us up at the station.
we were tired and exhausted...
and that's what i don't remember
why we were so late?
cause we actually planned to hang out and
shoot the entire afternoon.
maybe we did party the days before.
i just don't remember.
kitty and i even danced and jumped through his living room...
did he have a trampoline?
that's how him and me met for the first time... at the ratatat concert.
me, wearing a rosary on my head and going crazy.
dancing... like a mad person in the front row..
like a dark hippie with the cross on my forehead...
the cross swinging while i was moving more and more...
i even have the pictures before leaving for the concert.
George and i were getting ready (dressed) at his place...
wow amazing times
it must have been november or october 2008...
ratatat concert in cologne...
imagining stories and fantasies
thats really possible with ratatat music...
i went to so many concerts in 2008...
many memories and soundtracks in my head for many things.
i had forgotten that i had those pics...
i just didn't look at them that often afterwards
and was surprised seeing them again last week.
i kept on skipping through them several times...
they just captured me.
looking at the pictures now i think they are fascinating.
maybe it's the colours...
or the memory...
maybe the period?
the pain and the joy i often felt
i don't really know.
i really like looking at the pictures.
i remember that i didn't have this feeling
when he send them to me in march this year..
i did not appreciate those images that much.
but now i do.
they are special to me.
vor allem für deine geduld und deine ehrliche erfrischende person.
du, ganz einfach.
ich war ein verblendet als wir uns kennenlernten
ich konnte die zeit mit dir nicht wertschätzen
ich freue mich aber schon auf ein wiedersehen...
peace love and harmony mein freund
Freitag, 27. November 2009
Mittwoch, 25. November 2009
... is so grey...
by monika bielskyte (someslashthings.com)
showstudio.com (dress by gareth pugh)
...i don't feel like doing anything
maybe only walking around alone
watching a movie in a small empty cinema
drinking a tea in the corner of a quiet tiny coffee place
dazed and confused korea
editorial december 2009
l'extérieur et l'intérieur ne sont pas toujours pareils
sometimes people seem happy but they are not
sometimes people say they are ok but they yearn for something
sometimes people say they love but they are not satisfied
you guys take care of your loved ones...
a girl i know and you know just took her life
she would have been a wonderful woman
so lets be honest
everything has a reason